Now what???

The last couple of months it have been a time where I have found myself in many situations where I need to only TRUST God. I guess He wants me to learn that, to only TRUST in Him.

A year ago while I was doing a school in Holland, God spoke to me about studying. So I did, is simple, is something that I have learn thruoght YWAM. You listen to God, then you obey.

In November, I got offer a full scholarship in California. So... God spoke, I studied to be ready to go to College and then He opened a door for me. 2 years of full schoolarship, an appartment, and a part time job, sounded like an amazing oportunity to me. I prayed, I felt peace. 

Almost at the same time, I started dating. I began to share my life with a man that not only loves God but also have a heart for the ministry that I also have a heart for. A man that have help me grow closer to God and that I would love to spend the rest of my life with.

Today a week after I got the student visa denied I found my self in one of the most hardest times in my life. Not only the door was complete close but I can't be with the person that I love. He left to the States so we could be together there... 

Everything around me looks dark, I can't see farther than today, and today looks hard, today is a day that I don't know what to do. 

I need to TRUST God once again that He is bigger than my circunstances. 

So now what? 

Do I just keep working in YWAM and just wait to see what happen?

Do I look for a job and safe money to pay what I owe to YWAM and for the Embasy to see that I have something to tie me up to CR if I apply again one day? 

Should I study in CR? 

should I...? Am I...?

I am really confuse, I don't know what is my next step...

I love you, Lord, my strength.

² The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; 
    my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, 
    my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.

³ I called to the Lord, who is worthy of praise, 
    and I have been saved from my enemies. 

⁶ In my distress I called to the Lord; 
    I cried to my God for help. 

Psalm 18: 1-6