Now what???

The last couple of months it have been a time where I have found myself in many situations where I need to only TRUST God. I guess He wants me to learn that, to only TRUST in Him.

A year ago while I was doing a school in Holland, God spoke to me about studying. So I did, is simple, is something that I have learn thruoght YWAM. You listen to God, then you obey.

In November, I got offer a full scholarship in California. So... God spoke, I studied to be ready to go to College and then He opened a door for me. 2 years of full schoolarship, an appartment, and a part time job, sounded like an amazing oportunity to me. I prayed, I felt peace. 

Almost at the same time, I started dating. I began to share my life with a man that not only loves God but also have a heart for the ministry that I also have a heart for. A man that have help me grow closer to God and that I would love to spend the rest of my life with.

Today a week after I got the student visa denied I found my self in one of the most hardest times in my life. Not only the door was complete close but I can't be with the person that I love. He left to the States so we could be together there... 

Everything around me looks dark, I can't see farther than today, and today looks hard, today is a day that I don't know what to do. 

I need to TRUST God once again that He is bigger than my circunstances. 

So now what? 

Do I just keep working in YWAM and just wait to see what happen?

Do I look for a job and safe money to pay what I owe to YWAM and for the Embasy to see that I have something to tie me up to CR if I apply again one day? 

Should I study in CR? 

should I...? Am I...?

I am really confuse, I don't know what is my next step...

I love you, Lord, my strength.

² The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; 
    my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, 
    my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.

³ I called to the Lord, who is worthy of praise, 
    and I have been saved from my enemies. 

⁶ In my distress I called to the Lord; 
    I cried to my God for help. 

Psalm 18: 1-6

Unity

In February last year God gave me the opportunity to come to Norway and share about the work that we are doing in Costa Rica. We rise at that time enough money to open a coffee house in down town San Jose that is allowing us now to provide a safe place for the woman and man to come to get to know us better and vice versa. Once a week we have English class for them and this next year we are going to start more programs like bible studies. The goal is to be able to get to know them better so we can have a greater influence in their life.

Yesterday, I got the opportunity to share in the same church that I shared last February and this man after the service came to me and told me, how encourage he was because of what I share about their church being a huge part of what we are doing in Costa Rica. He got me thinking... Without their support and many people generosity through all 2011 we would not be able to be where we are and without the team that is working faithfully as part of Freedom Street, this ministry would not be able to exist... So many people would not be able to feel Loved by God in the streets if we all would not be working together.

One of my favorite Bible chapter is 1 Cor 12 that talks about the diversity and the unity with in the body of Christ. It is a beautiful gift from God that we can work together and be part of what God is doing in us and through us.  

⁴ There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit distributes them. ⁵There are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. ⁶ There are different kinds of working, but in all of them and in everyone it is the same God at work. ⁷ Now to each one the manifestation of the Spirit is given for the common good. 

I just want to encourage you to be part of what God is doing all around us, it may not look the same for everyone but you can be the piece of the puzzle that is missing.

¹⁸ But in fact God has placed the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. ¹⁹ If they were all one part, where would the body be?²⁰ As it is, there are many parts, but one body.